well it's early and usually i'm doing something other than surfing the web...but i was looking up stuff for next weekend. it's officially spring break and seeing as right now i have nothing to do i will excite the eyes of faithful readers and you know who you are. anyhow..
new favorite songs- "breathe me"- sia and "what i wouldn't give"- holly brook
fantastic.
i have no plans for spring break except to hang out at my house, i guess go shopping around charlotte (but that's nothing new) and um...go running? and write a paper but it'll be easy. on thursday i am going to devlin's house in greenville and then friday we're going to atlantic beach overnight and then coming back saturday night and leaving his house sunday for school. i think that'll be fun. i haven't been to the beach in forever and a day. and i love it so i can't wait and pictures will be posted for sure :)
so my grandparents were here for the past three days and visiting with them has been fun. my grandmom and i watched little miss sunshine tonight and it was a cute movie. i guess i might go to bed soon because i have nothing to do and i need to get up early to say goodbye to them.
speaking of goodbyes. they do suck. and unfortunatley i have to admit sadly that my parents were right. i would lose high school friends after i moved to charlotte for good. yes, i do definitely talk to about 3 or 4 regularly but still like people i considered myself to be pretty good friends with..i hardly talk to or if i do it's that fake casual stuff and i hate that more than anything. WHYYYYYY GOD WHYYYYY do people change? lol. but seriously. honestly i do some uh self reflection and i still feel exactly the same as i did when i left. i kind of like that. other than the fact that i have a boyfriend i mean i am still a huge dork/freak that i always have been. i don't feel any more or less mature than i have been in the last two years. maybe that's what you get for moving 3 summers in a row, you learn to deal with change that others are just now experiencing for the first time. hmm. could be. i don't know but i really did wish that i could not be forgotten by people i know that i still love so much. i try and do the myspace/facebooking comments but i don't get hardly in reply as many as i send. oh well. i guess...if you don't want to make the effort to be my friend anymore or if for some reason you don't like me or i did something to you, i'd really just like to be informed about it. haha sorry if that sounds lame but i mean really, i don't like things going unsaid...you just never know.
sometimes i have these huge revelations of life where i feel like i can do anything. not the bipolar type anything, but the anything as in the future of my life, career, etc. whatever. and then i start to doubt myself. and that part sucks. i am resolving this year to be more motivated. yeah, that's about it. now that i've written a book i'm going to end this.
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