good fortunes and the passing time

so i let myself down by not writing about my boring, yet no so boring life lately, and i feel bad about it. i know there are avid readers checking my blog everyday looking for updates, and i'm sorry. but i do have a life now, i'm in college give me a break jeez. kidding. i guess i have had spare time, but i spend it in other ways now than sitting on my computer babbling about gosh knows what. still, its fun to recap what has happened in the past hour/day/week, whatever. so onto that.

i've been here at uncc for what? like...two weeks exactly today actually. i can't complain. i've met like zillions of people, made some good friends, learned my way around campus, for the most part. and other cool stuff. so i mean, that's good. i feel right at home already, and i love school. i will probably never say that again. ever. but yeah it's really not that bad. i guess i haven't hit the peak of the actual work but i'll get there and then i'm sure i'll be hating life. oh well. what else is new....? umm. i'm listening to make tonight (emanuel) and i love this song. haha. that's not important. i miss my friends. my girls! just fyi. if you read this haha. i hope everyones liking school so far. i can't wait to come home and see everyone and how they've changed, or not changed. i'm upset because i'm still 17 and i can't go to all the cool clubs around here. my 18th birthday is going to be amazing, that's all i have to say. oh yeah, and i have a cough. it sucks. nyquil is good though.

want to hear about my professors? probably not but i'm going to write it anyway. so my global connections teacher looks like mr. flood and uses sarcasm in about 99% of his words. he's got a dry, but funny and amusing humor. i don't mind that class. i hope i pass it. freshman seminar...the lady is really nice, she's like a mom. she is a mom, but i mean, she's really...loving? i don't know. i like her alot too though. my astronomy lab teacher is a little off the wall but he seems like a decent dude. my math teacher on the other hand is from africa and he kind of freaks me out..i can't understand him sometimes and he is teaching us stuff we already know but it's like uber easy so i'm not going to complain, you know? did i cover everyone...um my pop culture teacher. yeah he sucks. it's not like he's mean, its just that that is the LONGEST class i have because it's once a week and this man has the personality of a cardboard box. imagine that. needless to say that's a great class. i don't know which one is my favorite yet. we'll see. besides classes, school isn't bad. i went to a frat party last weekend, that was an experience. i'd go again hah. me and nicola (my suitemate) danced our drunk asses off. goodtimes. what else....oh um we had a fire alarm go off today but apparently there is no need to go outside because its just a drill. i looked like death so that's a good thing i didn't have to go far. and now i need to go get ready because i have math class soon. it better not pour on me. the weather today is shitty, but i like it.

college life and other random thoughts

well for starters, i am no longer writing to you from HOME. i am at college. can you believe it? yeah neither can i. but my room is pretty much setup and whatnot. i still have some stuff to put away and hang on the walls but i'll get there. my roommates (theres 3 of them) brought a LOT of stuff. but its good. i love being in a suite. sorry to brag for those of you who are stuck in a 2x4 room. but yeah, our bathroom is adorable and our living room is cute we have a coffee table and everything. sooooo needless to say i think its going to be a good year. i hope. hah. i moved in yesterday and i felt so weird. but it was funny watching all the kids and their parents with all of their stuff. and i thought i packed alot. hah. yeah right. then again my house is all of ten minutes away so i can go back and get anything anytime. so i guess thats...sort of good. anyway, i got all settled yesterday and unpacked my room. and then..i went home with my mom and brother and sister. none of my roommates were staying the night so i was like ok...guess i won't either. so i had a peaceful night of sleep in my own bed. speaking of beds, mine here is like 5 feet off the ground requiring me to like high jump onto it. i could lower it but then all of my stuff wouldnt fit under the bed so who knows. i'm bored. i think i'll go do some more unpacking. oh yeah, in the hallway theres a giant bulletin board by the elevator and the RA's stapled condoms all around the border of it. thought that was amusing. most of them are gone. go figure. (and no, i didn't take any) haha. i'll update as soon as something interesting occurs around here. adios.

breathing should be an easy task

I figured it was necessary to write now because tonight's a pretty big deal. At least I think it is anyway. This is the last time I'll sleep in my bed for..who knows how long. Not that I couldn't come home whenever but I mean it'd sort of ruin the idea, ya know? I can't believe how much stuff is necessary to bring to school when you're living on your own. It's all so crazy. We're growing upppp. Ahhh. I wish my dad was here to help me move in tomorrow. I don't know why he has to go work in Florida now. I don't want to move again. But I'm used to it, and I'm out of school so I guess it shouldn't matter. Anyway...I can't believe this is all happening. It really does feel like yesterday that summer was just beginning. There was so much ahead, and now...there's school to look forward too but still...I don't know. I'm so nervous. My dad thinks that I will be loving it within 4 hours, so he says. We'll see about that. I just want to meet some cool, down to earth people. Things still aren't sinking in though. But I did look at my nightstand earlier and was packing stuff I need, and I grabbed my jar of vaseline (which I use as lipgloss!) and for some reason that sort of set me off. My eyes watered a little...I didn't cry, but I was close to it. I'm just really going to have to get used to things changing. Not just moving away from home or being away from md and all my friends, but the fact that high school is over. The drama won't be the same. No lockers, no "early release for snow" or bells or hall passes. Those are the things I think in a way I'll miss. But honestly like, you can't go back. Even if you wanted to. Things will never ever be able to be like they were. Everyone is moving on, everyone is going away and getting on with their lives. I don't know why I just thought of the quote "Life sucks, then you die" but that isn't all entirely true. I mean yeah, I complain about alot of things- I'm not gonna lie haha but I have some amazing friends and a good family, and we've shared alot of memories together that I would never take back. I don't regret anything I've ever done. If anything I've learned from it, and laughed it off or just put it in the back of my mind, you know? I think in order to feel good about change you need to believe that life is worth living. All of it- the good, the bad, and the ugly. Approximately 12 hours from now I'll be moving into my room and meeting new people and who knows how I'll be feeling, but hopefully I'll survive. I guess I'm ready. Onto new things...

With a new school year comes a new tv show, and well although it's not new it's a new season. Season 3 Laguna Beach premiered tonight. Reminds me why I love/hate high school. Some girls are really mean. Ever heard of a little thing called empathy? Apparently some people haven't. What a shame. But I think this season will be pretttttty interesting. You know how there are just some people you never get over? Well sometimes there are just shows that I will never get over. Like lame-oh Laguna Beach. ahhhhh

TOMORROW I AM GOING TO COLLEGE.

i wish someone was here to slap me.
well, wish me luck. i'll let you know how it goes.
<3

sweet tunes end a bittersweet summer

i'm not gonna lie. i think the title of this blog is pretty creative haha. it really speaks for what i'm trying to say, like...i'm listening to good music as in..."far away" by nickelback. i'm not a huge nickelback fan but this song is just like..heartbreaking and i can't get enough of it for some reason. i also can't get enough of chris brown "say goodbye" two extremes but eh whatev. anyway, back to the title of this blog, sweet tunes, as in good music, are certainly ending and also signifying the beginning of a new part of life-the complete end of high school and well, childhood i suppose you could say, and the start of new experiences in college. i am uber nervous about going away on thursday. i guess it won't sink in until i'm actually there. we'll see.

so i left home aka st marys county today. awh how sad. i hate driving that long, and yeah goodbyes are no fun. luckily we all held it together good, it was more of a....i'll see you later. i mean, i'm guessing my friends are getting used to saying goodbye to me haha as sad as that is. they know i will always come back. so no worries. still, it was sad. we had good times though.

recap of the past...7 days:
-haircut, free stuff
-sickness
-olive garden
-sleeping in
-getting burnt to a crisp at lindseys
-waldorf trip with linds and meg (oh, what a night)
-good breakfast's
-laguna
-college shopping
-jamie and deirdra adventures (parties and donut connection)
-final destination 3 is scary
-kels, dei, rob, colb at donut connection for hours playing scratch off lottery tickets
-she's the man is the best movie ever
-going to see step up just for channing tatum
-kristen ash and i are the weirdest people alive- (some nicknames are just not appropriate)
-french fries for breakfast?
-church is not the same anymore, but on sunday it was perfect (reunion)
-monterey is amazing
-frosties are worth it no matter how far you go for them, and how much you spill on yourself while driving, try a snack wrap

that's it for now. if i think of anything else i'll write it the next time, but yeah....this week was a great ending to the summer. there is really nowhere i'd rather be than at home in that godforsaken county with the best friends a person could ever ask for. i'm going to miss it haha. well...cheers.

sunburn on rainy days still hurts

i'm alive and kickin'. why that is a saying, i couldn't tell you. are you only supposed to say it if you do karate or tae kwon do or something? who knows, but i am alive. i say this because on tuesday when i drove a whole 6 hours straight by myself with my sister relaxing by my side, i got extremely sick when i finally arrived home. i got into smc around oh...i don't know 5, and dropped kari off at her friends house. i was supposed to go to lindseys where i have been staying for the past 2 nights but that was all the way in leonardtown and i had to be back in wildewood at 7 for a haircut for my sister and i. i felt so incredibly crappy that i broke into kristens house and passed out on her couch for an hour or so. kari thought i forgot to get her and so she got a ride to the salon herself and i met her there. anyway, i finally got up the strength to get up and drive myself over there and take her and her friend home. then i proceeded to go to lindseys and pretend like i was feeling ok, when really, i was dying. my head was pounding and my stomach hurt so bad. ughh. worse than like any hangover. but so we were about to have some frozen pizza, cause well, that's how the barrett's do dinner on a tuesday night, and of course i get all pale and dizzy and have to passout upstairs in lindseys bed at 7:30. didn't get up til 11:45 that night when she was about to go to bed herself. so much for having a great welcome back night. but anywho...

the next day i felt like a million bucks. we just wanted to chill and hang by the pool, get some sun. boy did we (mostly me) get sun. you should see how red i am. i look like rudolph, my nose is like bright red. and asians DO get burnt, at least this one does. even if i am only half. the white side of me got the best of me yesterday and i am paying for it now. ugh i can't WAIT til it starts peeling! sike. anywho, later last night me, linds, dei, megan, steph, jesse and dei all went to olive garden in waldof. and anyone who has been to olive garden knows there's no need to elaborate about it after you stated that you went there for dinner. it was awesome. period. SO, after dinner me, linds and megan drove back home and changed clothes, and went back UP to waldorf where we partied hard with burke, and his friend kilby, and a bunch of other people i have never seen in my life, or will ever probably see again as a matter of fact. but that's life. it was an interesting night. i didn't drink too much, seeing as i was DD, (yay me) but it wasn't that bad. watching drunk people is kind of entertaining, but after awhile it sucks unless you're one of them too, especially when they get...retarded. anyway...i don't know. we made it home alive finally at around four and fell right asleep at lindseys dad's house. oh..what a night.

this morning lindseys dad and stepmom made us an amazing breakfast. thanks for that by the way, if you ever find yourself reading this. and then we kinda just layed around. it's really rainy today, sort of the perfect day for a hangover hah. although i didn't have one so i felt pretty freakin' good minus the fact that my face feels like it has third degree burns on it, eh what can you do? nothing really except excessively apply moisturizer on it so you can still make facial expressions. but that's just me. so we finally got dressed, megan went home, and linds and i ran some errands around the county. i got my laguna beach season 2 collectors edition dvds so i am content with life right now. it's actually playing right now. i also bought some plastic cups, plates, hair ties, an eye pencil sharpener, and the dvd of what else, "just friends" that was conveniently on sale for ten bucks. so that was that. oh yeah, we went to chik fil a too. then came home. now the day is winding down and who knows what we're going to do tonight, or for the rest of the time i am here, but i'll let you know as soon as it happens.

it would have sucked to go to warped tour today, because...it's raining. but actually..it might've been kinda tight. oh well, i'm poor.

halos, books, and dark laundry

sometimes monday's aren't so manic. and even if they were, why would anyone want it so be sunday? i mean yeah sunday's are good for getting last minute homework done and going to church but other than that, sunday's are just a forewarning that mondays are coming. so that's dumb. anyway...today is monday and it wasn't so crazy. i got up at 11 something, and then i don't even know what i did all day...watched movies, did pilates, took a shower, did laundry. actually i'm still doing laundry. i don't really mind though. earlier tonight we took a drive into the city and drove all the way through it til we got into south carolina in which we went to game stop for my brother and his friend. it was a pretty pointless trip for me, but i had nothing better to do tonight. i'm trying to think of what i need to pack since i haven't done that yet. most likely i'll end up passing out tonight and doing it tomorrow morning while kari aka the most anal OCD person ever will scream at me to hurry up so we can leave. eh whatever we'll get there. and that's what i like to think, but sometimes you really do need to like...take initiative when it comes to certain things. i am pretty lazy, and i procrastinate alot- i'm not gonna lie. but i know when i need to step it up. anyway i don't know what i'm talking about.

i had another weird dream last night, in a nutshell- i was out on a lake boating and doing some sort of water sport, but it was unusual because the water sport was putting a rope around your neck while being pulled either frontwards or backwards. weird i know. infact it's quite morbid. ugh. on the bright side, i got a package in the mail today and everyone knows that that's one of the best feelings in the world. another one of my random amazon orders came in. i ordered that book "tuesdays with morrie." i saw the movie and that was my inspiration to get the book, which i think will be equally as good. anyhow i need to go check my laundry. i don't know when the next time i'll have enough time on a computer to write one of these, so don't hold your breath, because tomorrow i'll be home in MD :) maybe i'll see YOU (if you're cool enough that is) <3

crowded malls do not have my name on them

aw, i love this song. "long talks" by the early november. it's my jam of the night. anyway, i have something else to complain about tonight. shopping malls. everyone who knows me knows that i do not like shopping all too much. i mean yeah, i like it when i'm in the mood and when there's some sales going on, but honestly, you will most likely not catch me in a mall when there is bound to be a million people out shopping. i like my personal space when i'm trying to buy clothes. so this weekend was tax free weekend and of course my parents drag me out to concord mills which is wicked packed with every person in the state of north carolina. shoot me. i couldn't even breathe in there. though i managed to find some good deals. i got 5 tops and a pair of jeans from various stores such as the gap, american eagle and old navy. yea, thats about it. so the day didn't turn out all that bad but honestly- never again.

now that that's off my chest...my finger is getting better. it sort of looks like a blister now. i can bend it finally. i have a headache again. i think frequent headaches are bad for you. whats wrong with meee?! oh yeah, my dvd player broke. son of a bitch. and a dvd that i rented is trapped in it. poor thing. it was a horror movie called "camp slaughter" haha and it was almost at the end til this pos died on me, or whatever the hell is wrong with it. so now i don't know if the people live or die. don't you hate that? i'll probably be up all night contemplating it. but maybe not. i've been having really weird dreams lately. they're sort of freaking me out. i'll even wake up for a few minutes then fall back to sleep into the dream where i left off. like i'm having dreams about people i never see or talk to, or like...i'll be in one place at one point then all of a sudden in a different place. for example: last nights dream went as follows- there's a giant room with huge glass windows and its spinning like its on an axis, everyone from the senior and junior class is there and sitting against the walls, and we're playing a game. one person is like "it" and gets to ask three underclassmen a question in which they answer and if they get it right then its their turn. anyway i choose like three juniors who...aren't even juniors yet. then i started talking to an old friend about a new car she is getting from her dad. all of a sudden it's winter and i'm walking around my old neighborhood dragging a red wagon behind me in the snow and it's freezing and i go to my sister's friends house and her friend gives me a head band to keep my ears warm and then i leave and start walking home. oh and also, part of this dream contained the whole cross country team from sophomore year. i like quit the team and everyone got pissed at me. that's all i can recall at the moment. this dream took place all in one night. i have no idea what it means but definitely another "random jamie dream" my head still hurts. i'm going to sleep.

finger burns and airports

I felt like I had to write something today...or well..tonight I guess because my day was actually interesting. Well, not really but I wanted to express my new hatred for hair styling products. More specifically, the straightener. You see, I need a really hot one because I have wavy/curly hair that refuses to go straight unless under extreme heat. So i got this cool new one that goes to like 400 something degrees, and as I am using it today to get ready to go out to the store, what do I do? CLOSE IT ON MY LEFT HAND POINTER FINGER. Yeah, I guess it was my fault but come on, these things should come with labels "be careful of burning your fingers" who knows. But yeah so it's been killing me all night. It hurts like the dickens. The tip of my finger sort of looks plasticy...its kinda gross actually...ugh. Anyway,

The air conditioner broke in Hollywood Video. Usually it's really cold in there and feels pretty dang good compared to outside, but today it was like a sauna. I was about to faint. And my finger felt like it had a burning heart in it. Ouch. But then my Dad and I went next door to Harris Teeter, which is a common grocery store down in NC for those of you foreigners, and it was nice and cool. We got mint chocolate chip ice cream. Need I say more? Oh yeah, then an hour later we all went to the airport to pick up my brother's friend, Daniel. Seriously, there was no reason for me to go but I have an unusual love for airports. I like seeing all the different people going in and out the terminals, reuniting with friends and family, sleeping on couches, listening to ipods. I wonder where all of these people are from and where they are going. Is that weird? Whatever. So airports are cool. My finger hurts still, I should just go to sleep and save myself from feeling anymore pain. Tomorrow (today) is Sunday which means church. Fun stuff right there. I just don't like getting up early. Anyway I am rambling now so enough said. Goodnight.

spare time and darla love

so i'm on the phone with Kristen now and of course, we are bored as bored can get. and we start talking about one of our favorite movies "just friends." now if you haven't seen this, you must. and if you did see it, and don't think it was anything special- you are retarded. this movie has the best quotes. speaking of which, when a movie has good quotes, the only thing to do of course is record them and set them as your ringtones, duh. so since i don't have the dvd and kristen does, she put it on and recorded our favorite parts on her cell and sent them to mine. this includes "its ok, i like girls-DARLA!" and "hello...joyce..hello?" and "i'm sorry i'm not the most boring person ever ok. God. I'm sorry i'm not poor. i'm sorry i don't have a fat ass!" and many more. SO. what a good night.
oh can i say something else. pilates is so fun. you need to do pilates. wait what else did i want to say...oh yeah. look up the times for mtv and see when the episode about the kid named Jordan who wants to be homecoming prince is on. it is possibly the funniest made episode i've ever seen. it's up there with the gay soccer player Josh even. so seriously, watch it. if you are bored, check out jeff kummer's blog http://www.jeffkummer.blogspot.com/ (the drummer from the early november) . that man is freakin' hilarious. or if you're like me you can check www.hilarynews.com and see all of the new things hilary duff is getting herself into these days. another favorite pasttime of mine is playing games on www.disneychannel.com seriously...don't underestimate this site. oh yeah, shout out to my lover matt who proudly listens to the high school musical soundtrack :) so i can't help i have no life at the moment. i just moved here what do you expect? but um..4 days til i'm home in the smc stayin with blinz and kpax. that's exciting. <3

ps- vishal doesn't hate me anymore!

high notes and old photographs

it's really not necessary for me to start one of these, but since i've got time. and i don't mind writing, i thought i would give it a try. after all, new chapters in life deserve new things, such as a new blog. and anyway, i'm sick of the way xanga is layed out, plus that blog is more personal i guess you could say. hopefully someone gets entertainment from reading what i'll write in this. anyway...

i need to give kudos to kristen who has been my inspiration for this blog. thank you. mine will probably never be as good as yours but hey i can try right? here is a snippet of what she has in her most recent post: "So Jamie and I had an interesting phone conversation last night. We made fun of poor people in the yearbook for like 2 hours. Why? We are us. But honeslty, there is a such thing as picture retake day. Then I have to side with those people because sometimes you get a bad picture aka 11th grade eewww. And you have to go on a field trip on make up day so you can’t always help it." It really doesn't get any better than that. And yeah, that is what we talked about last night at like 12 am. Because we can. I guess.

SO. onto new and better, actually, no not better things. Worse things. Vishal is officially mad at me right now. Why, because I was joking around about his knee. I don't understand. Me and him are always cool, he is like never mad. And he knows how completely retarded I am about like..well everything, so I don't know why he like freaked out on me. Anyway that's what is on my mind and obviously its bothering me. I hate when I'm on bad terms with my friends. Not a good feeling. I hope this doesn't last long.

I'm going home to MD soon and finally won't be bored to death here in charlotte with the fam anymore. so thank God for that. I can't waitttt :) Spending my last week of summer at home should be goodtimes. I'm still coming realizing that things are ending. I already feel like people are separating from each other..and it's sad. I hate change, but I guess sometimes it's for the best.