days go by

Day 17 – A photo of you and your family.

i don't have any. and if i do, they are not good ones.

NEXT!

cough cough cough

i have a cough now and it's hurting my lungs. god i hope i don't get bronchitis. life has been especially horrible to me lately, especially as of sunday. though saturday i did graduate college so that was a good feeling and whatnot. but when sunday came and certain facts were given to me about a certain someone, life changed a bit more. i'd say for the worse, but everyone else says for the better. i don't want to get into it. i'm already emotionally unstable enough. i hate crying.

to make matters worse for today, someone ate my leftover steak and potato from longhorn. it was gone when i got home from work. and i'd been looking forward to it all day. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH my life is such a joke right now.

but i did get a job. it's temporary. starts feb 7th. but it pays a crapload and i guess it will keep me entertained for some time at least. then who knows what the heck i'll do.

right now i am focusing on the simplest goals of life and that is- getting out of bed, brushing my teeth at least once a day, and showering. isn't that enough?

it was enchanting to meet you

Day 16 – Your celebrity crush.

really? everyone knows i have like a million celebrity crushes. how am i supposed to narrow this down to one? ughh....well i guess there is a difference between celebrity and reality star...

man...who am i to choose?

this picture is totally inappropriate but i don't care hahahah i love me some jason stackhouse!!! aka ryan kwanten

i had chili for dinner and it was good

Day 15 – Something you don’t leave the house without.

my cellular telephone. actually it's a smart telephone because i have a Blackberry Tour. yes, i love it. well...when it's nice to me.

i had an allstar weekend

well i thought the title of my blog was catchy, what about you? get it? hahahah you would if you knew that last night my sister and i went to the allstar weekend concert at amos'. allstar weekend is a pop punk band that my brother's friend from elementary school, zach, is the lead singer in and they are signed with hollywood records and all over radio disney/disney channel in general. pretty cool. got free tix and got to go on the tour bus etc etc and it was wicked cooooooooool. i'm just jealous they have met selena, demi, miley, etc my disney starlet obsessions. but anyway yeah zach ended up hopping in the car with my sister and i after the show (she had to drive because i drank too much, which by the way how does that happen? i never drink errr) anyway so she drove us to cookout to get food and then to our house and met up with my brother and ricky and the whole gang and we all hungout and talked and zach told everyone tour stories and the like. hundreds of thousands of 14 year old girls would have died if this happened to them, let's just put it that way. anywho good times.

i also became an alumni of alpha kappa psi eta omega chapter at UNCC today! wooohooooooo! now i just need to ACTUALLY graduate. that will be the death of me. God help me get through the next two weeks! ok what else....uhh i don't know i'm too lazy and tired and full from dinner and warm from this heating pad i have on to write anymore or post my blog challenge so i'll do that tomorrow or whenever i get to it. mmk i'm done with this for now.

happy 100

Day 14 – A TV show you’re currently addicted to.

everyone who knows me in the slightest way knows that i am a tv fanatic and i have "my shows" that i must watch. one that i am addicted to just does not cut it. i have about 20. more or less. i dvr most of them, and i can't pick just one. here are a few of my favs: gossip girl. one tree hill. teen mom. dexter. true blood. secret life of the american teenager. buried life. world of jenks. greys anatomy. vampire diaries.

well there are many more and some of the aforementioned are slightly more important than others but you get the idea. i love tv. living life vicariously through a character on tv is way better than living your own.

i hate everything

Day 13 – Your favorite musician and why?

i don't have a favorite musician. i mean, i don't have just one. so.....maybe i can put like demi lovato. why? because she's amazing. and...i want to trade voices with her.

and i'll run

Day 12 – A photograph of the town you live in.

i technically don't live uptown, aka in the city city, but that is the skyline of charlotte and technically my address is charlotte, nc but a different zipcode. i live in the suburb part. anyway...there it is.

okay

if i hear the commercial for whatever it is that plays florence and the machine's "dog days are over" one more time, i might commit suicide.

that's all.

numb

sorry i've been m.i.a. something terrible happened to me on thanksgiving involving a certain someone so i've been sick to my stomach and not on the computer or doing much of anything really. thought i did go shopping a little bit yesterday. anyway, i don't want to talk about that anymore....

Day 11 – What’s in your makeup bag?

well it doesn't say show a picture so i'm not because i'm lazy. i have true match powder, lots of mac and clinique eyeshadows, sephora primer, define a lash mascara, and makeup forever eyeliner...and some lipglosses... and maybelline mineral concealer...mac bronzer....

you get the idea

don't call me a lolita

Day 10 – A photo of our favorite place to eat.

i like way too many places to take a picture of just one of my favorite places to eat so this is pointless. i guess i'll just put one.

my forever

Day 9 – A photo of the item you last purchased.

hmmm well i'm not going to count food because that's just dumb. i really can't remember the last thing i bought...i guess maybe these 3 books from amazon. i got the girl with the dragon tattoo, and the girl who played with fire, and then my personal favorite, unbearable lightness. now i haven't read it yet but i will soon. it's about her eating disorder and i'm pretty obsessed with anyone with issues so i can't wait to read this.

so much colder than i can remember

Day 8 – A song to match your mood.

Waka Flaka Flame- No Hands

this doesn't match my mood. i've been listening to miley cyrus' permanent december hence the title which yes i copied from kristen. and...that's about it because i had been working on this STUPID business policy individual project case study about gap that took over my entire life from last wednesday until last night at 2 am. i pretty much know everything you never wanted to know about gap inc. also, my computer came down with a horrible virus and threw up everywhere. ok not really but it got a virus and its still functioning but i have this pretend microsoft thing thats called check disk that wants me to defrag my comp and keeps popping up saying i have all these critical errors blah blah. and it stole my start bar at the bottom so i cant click my tabs along the bottom of m screen. wtf its really annoying. UGH i even deleted limewire and this is what i get :(

on another note, i can't wait until tomorrow at 9:15 pm when i am done classes for the week!!!!!!!!

um

Day 7 – Your dream wedding.

i haven't thought too much into this. but i don't want a big wedding i know that. i don't like large crowds and i don't like attention. i have a few random ideas of color schemes, flowers, dresses, etc but they change frequently after i watch say yes to the dress or whatever other show on TLC. also, i did save the issue of OK mag that featured hilary duff's wedding because we all know she's my idol. but her wedding was big. if i could shrink it i'd do a lot of things she did. anyway yea, that's it.

i know everything about the gap

today's challenge is Day 6 – A photo of an animal you’d love to keep as a pet.

this is a maltipoo. i don't know why but i just love these dogs. they're seriously adorable. particularly this one with it's one black ear. and also, they are hypoallergenic.

if you are wondering why the title of this blog is called i know everything about the gap it's because i do. i've been working on this case study about it for the past 3 days straight and it's due monday and i still have a looooooong way to go. shoot me. i hate you dr.b**** for making me do this. i had to star her name out incase she ever reads this. anyway, yeah that's what i'm going to go do now. though i'd rather be catching up on gossip girl, grey's, or dexter. grrr

oops

i forgot to post yesterday. this was the challenge.
Day 5 – A photo of yourself two years ago.
this is not the most flattering picture but two years ago this very month, i was spending every waking moment with cody when i wasn't in school or we both weren't at work. it was because he was leaving to go back to arizona in december. anyway, i think i pretty much look the same. bad. haha.

untitled

Day 4 – Your favorite photograph of your best friend.

God knows why I would post this picture beacuse i'm in it with my huge forehead and fat roll as well, but it was a good day and we had fun. and i like those sunglasses on you, k. alright well, that was that.

happy hump day

Day 3 – Your idea of the perfect first date.

i don't have an idea of the perfect first date. i don't like first dates, or dates at all really when you have to name them a date. i mostly just think of the movie miss congeniality when that girl says april 20-something and not too hot not too cold. so that, and just no awkwardness though that's never the case.

i cannot write 10 page papers

Day 2 – A photo of something you ate today.

This is Trader Joe's Spiced Cider and it is delish.

I am trying to finish the last 3 + pages of my women's studies paper and it is not going so well. Why must it be 10 pages? This is just ridiculous.

let the challenges begin

okay so kristen showed me this 30 day blogging challenge and i'm going to start today.
Day 1 – A photo of yourself and a description of how your day was.

ok.... well that doesn't look awkward or anything but there it is. what i look like at this very moment in time. awesome. hahha

today.......

8 am- alarm went off....didn't get up
9 - finally got up and showered for school
10- arrive at school 30 minutes late for a group meeting for business policy
10:30- group leaves and i sit in library doing nothing on my laptop for 2 hours. oh but kristen (not blogger kristen) old roommate kristen came and sat with me for a bit
12:30- went to my womens studies class (race sexuality and the body) where i proceeded to fall asleep as we talked about white women hooking up with black men and black women hooking up with white men and prison rapes. fun stuff.
1:45- leave to go home
2:15- eat everything in the house. hah jk a slice of pumpkin bread with chocolate chips, homemade split pea soup with ham, and diet sierra mist with cranberry, and a miniature hershey cookies n cream
3:00- call cody and annoy him before work
3:16- aka now. talk to ashleigh on aim and procrastinate writing my 10 page paper

the rest of the night sounds like what i'm doing right now. but we'll see....

okay well that was it. this is kind of fun.

windsor drive

is my new favorite band lately. but i've also downloaded the new lil wayne album, and big time rush album, and some other odd songs.

i had a nice fall break last week and wish it lasted longer. i went home to md and went to the renaissance festival, went to a corn maze, pumpkin picking, etc etcccc it was very nice. now it's back to reality and school is a bother once again. i am so ready for december 18th to be here. except i don't know what i'll do after that. but it has to be better than this. that's all i know.

so what else is new? two weekends ago kathleen and i saw mae. that was fun.

mom and i went shopping yesterday and i got some stuff. yay...

bahhh i don't know i'm done

i never told you

I miss those blue eyes
How you kiss me at night
I miss the way we sleep

Like there's no sunrise
Like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
And after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

I see your blue eyes
Everytime I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to
When I'm not around you
It's like I'm alone with me

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
And after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
And after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

needless to say tonight was the end of the hills and of course i cried. i know it's fake and blah blah blah but i don't care. i'm having a slight quarter life crisis. everythings changing and i'm not prepared for it, i can't handle it, i don't know how to handle all that's going on (and not going on). the next year of my life is completely up in the air and i have less than 6 months to figure out what i'm doing. *sigh*

and all i wanted was a simple kind of life

so..seriously. 5 months give or take and i haven't written in here. i am too lazy to use proper punctuation so just deal with it.

i get on blogger almost everyday and read kristen's blogs. i think they should be published in a book for real. i would totally buy that. we need to become friends with a book publisher so we can get that going. they are my entertainment and i wish i had the drive to write like that too.

it's thursday night, actually it's friday morning now technically, and i just got done watching hilary duff's new movie out called "according to greta" and i might just need to go buy it. i really liked it. it's an independent movie which of course means it's all emotional and weird and imperfect and of course that's right up my alley. anyway, fuck everyone who doesn't like her seriously i thought she was really good in this film. and i have a new crush on evan ross who plays her little love interest and he is also diana ross's son and he's adorable. so my point is i liked the movie and everyone should go rent it from redbox cause it was good and...yeah.

as of wednesday i was done school. my last final for the semester, that is. i have ONE more semester to go before i graduate in december and luckily i don't have to take any summer classes like i did last summer. it's kinda sad because all of my friends are graduating on time, well not all, but a lot and it makes me feel sort of like a failure. but at the same time i don't think i am ready to graduate and there's no jobs and i don't know what i want to do with my life so having six more months to think about it and live off my parents guilt free won't hurt, right? that's my theory.

what else can i ramble about? how about how much money i don't have that i want to spend and am thinking about spending my savings because i can't control myself. oh, it's bad. let's go through what i've bought in the last few months on my own dime- 200 trip to miami (and that was with a free place to stay) 179 on a digital camera because mine died (never buy a kodak) 120 on a new straightener (my chi died, i bought a sedu which is much better) and...160 on a blackberry..(i was sick of my piece of crap env2 which was starting to die anyway) so there it is...that's what? $659.....and then prob almost 100 worth of going out to eat. soo...maybe..760...shoot me. that is so wrong. but somehow i managed to save about 600 too so i guess that's good. i plan to travel alot this summer. with what money you ask? my savings. babysitting money (yes i still save it like i'm 14) i want to go see cody so bad. i haven't seen im since august and...i think that's enough said.

before i finish up here, i'd like to add that i got the new "charice" cd after seeing her on oprah and i love it.

i am aware that this blog was all over the place but after not writing for so long i had no idea where to start. i could write more but....i'm going to bed.

january snowed in weekend

yesterday we were "snowed in" too bad this couldnt happen in the middle of week which would cancel school. but i have managed to catch up a lot on season 4 of dexter. i am on episode 8 of 12. so i'm getting there. i reallllly don't want to go to school tomorrow but i know it's going to happen. fml.

hiatus

i took an extremely long hiatus from blogger. i don't have an explanation other than either i was busy or i was busy doing nothing..or i'm just lazy. probably a combination of the three. anyways, heather asked me if i quit blogging and the answer is no, just...took a long break.

so what has happened since april 2009? well not a whole lot. i took 4 summer classes and worked at ann taylor...that was fun. (not) and....cody came to visit in august and we went to ocean isle for his cousin, holly's wedding. i haven't seen him since. :( but we still talk 24/7 so i guess that's good...i don't know where it's going so don't ask. let's see..school started back in august and that sucked but i made it through and over fall break i went to NJ/NYC with some akpsi people and it was a lot of fun. Then, over thanksgiving break the fam took a trip to CT and then to phily to see the godparents, then we picked up my grandma in jersey and she was here until last week. okkkk thennnnn.....christmas came and went and now i'm back in school. boo. i have 5 classes....they are ok. i have 5 more to take in the fall then i'm DONE. DONE. DONE. please hurry...sorta.

i just got a job at the accounting office that my parents do their accounting with. the lady is nice. it's a pretty chill job so far. i wish i was an accounting major so i could have gotten credit for it but oh well. i am poor and need money.

i also got really obsessed with true blood and dexter since the last time i wrote....so yeah..that's fun.

i can't think of anything else right now...i'll try and update more often (i always say that)

so long....