santa, you bitch

i don't really feel like being on here. for some reason it takes effort for me when i'm not quite in the mood. i've enjoyed the past few days spending alot of time with cody because he's leaving this tuesday..or wednesday. which really really really super sucks and i don't want to talk or think about it. anyway, today we went hiking in gastonia on crowder mountain and it sure was a hike but we finally made it to the top and it was breathtaking. i'll put some pics up on facebook eventually. so yeah, that was relaxing and...nice. we met an older couple that wouldn't stop talking to us, but they were cute hah.

this coming tuesday is also the last day of class, until finals that is, so that's just great. minus cody leaving. sorry i keep ranting about him leaving. it consumes me, and i'm sad. he has become one of my closest friends now, and its going to be incredibly hard being away from him. anyway..oh yea we went to cracker barrel after hiking and man i love that place, its seriously so homey and warm. i wish i had a fireplace in my room. random thought.

so i've enjoyed heathers new poems, just givin' my fiance a shout out (if you didn't know we are engaged on facebook). also, kristen, always funny. can i just say that i am an observer also. what's coming to my mind is britney spears new song, circus, (yes,i bought the album) which begins "there's only two kinds of people in the world. the ones that entertain and the ones that observe" well britney is a put on a show kind of girl, and i am a watch the show from the center/middle row. i don't know why people are born the way they are. i feel like i was made to be awkward and feel embarrassed 24/7, though i shouldn't. i don't know...it's weird. sometimes i'm like super self conscious and other times i'm like psh eff you i don't know you. hmm...i'm not sure which is better to be. anywho, i pay attention to things i really shouldn't. and i want to make it clear that if i'm staring at you i'm simply wondering, i'm not judging you, let's not get the two confused. i hate when people think that certain people are close minded just because their background or sarcasm. whatever. i believe i am open minded and quite frankly i don't care if someone thinks i'm not. i.e.- cody calls me a prissy bitch and thinks i like hate poor people. whoa whoa whoa and whoa. that makes me mad. very untrue. i don't even feel like explaining myself. therefore, i'm going to wrap this up and call it a night. i really should have been doing homework or studying or SOMETHING for the past two hours. what else is new?

p.s.-listen to the maine "santa stole my girlfriend" on youtube.